I know not the siren’s calls,
Or the taste of the
but instead have
MySelf….a wicked lonely path,
and back alleys among the
Is it possible to develop feelings for people in friends with benefits, (FWB)?
I have to say yes, and the more you have, the the complicated your situation. Uh, my situation with my FWBs friends have somehow found a place in my heart, except that missing big piece.
That is, I have grown feelings for them, and I’m at the point of backing away to my little hermit hole. I have thought of celibacy as a point of retreat, but my hunger for sex gets in the way of that thought.
Or is this fear of true intimacy?
I have to ask the question because of my past.
I was extremely lucky to be married, but found myself divorced.
You might ask, if I’ve been married twice, why bitch about living a swinger’s life, with sex at least two to three times a week?
I believe sex to be a sacred thing, even though that sex may be one moment in time between stranger and yourself, regardless of your sexual preference.
And in my case, I have a spiritual belief in a soulmate…. or is that soulmates?
I found no
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I’m usually quiet and don’t say much about this subject online, but as the old saying goes, a closed mouth don’t get fed….
I think sometimes that I don’t have an extraordinary sex. But then when I talk to other people and friends, I have found that I have more sex than most. There’s a close friend of mine that thinks my desired adverage of two to three times a day to be extreme, but then, she’s been celibate since 2009.
Others, however, seem content with once a week.
My friend, the one whose celibate, thinks I should see counseling or SA, (Sex Anonymous), but I see such a grouping as a hunting ground to feed my passion and lust, (yeah, tried that!).
So now I just follow my flow and energy, but it gets lonely….
It’s hard being a sacred bi-sexual and nympho.
Now, does this have to do with mindfulness?
When I found I was OK with my sexuality and constant need, I started researching the Tantra, meditation and sacred sexuality.
These gave me a framework of understanding myself spiritually, brought awareness of my sexual energy, (chi, lifeforce, kudalini….).
So, when I have sex, I clear my mind and focus on the sexual act, relaxed as a meditation.
And most of all enjoy the moment….
Now, if I can only raise my chi from its Root to the other six chakras….